「 Wednesday, May 31, 2006 」
another day has passed.. bored.. sick.. just cant stop my thoughts to drift.. thinking of you.. haiS.. went early to school today.. told everyone come to school at the norm.. 715.. actually its 750.. loLs.. nvm.. still left the last qns to do for maths.. doing sth b4 i slept.. Yup! 'joycelyn' joc twin sister.. wah! lame.. imaginary-self? Maths class was draggy.. though we only need to stay for 2 hrs.. but it was a killer.. burn-out.. went home after that.. bored.. nothing to do.. went home.. my bros ask me wanna go out.. loLs.. i tag along.. wahahahas.. one day off.. anyway my bro is going back army.. last day to go out.. on a week day i mean.. wanted to go K-box.. last minute change of plan.. my bro going at nite with his frens.. so decide to go bowling instead.. long time since i played this game.. headed to safra-yishun.. asking for a lane.. suddenly i turn to the few pool tables there.. saw a punker? so familiar.. 'kawi?' wa! really is him.. been years since we met.. since primary 6.. almost 4 years i guess.. change totally lar bro.. though see u in frenster.. meeting you personally was different.. lols.. than dun disturb you lor.. we ownself go play bowling.. the marks was thrash.. wahahahas.. but fun.. had a good laugh.. i 0- 2 times.. lols.. unconsitant.. suddenly strike.. the next.. will hit nothing.. lols.. got sick of bowling.. we went to play pool.. so cheap! 1 hr $3.. even see b4? lols.. fun!.. but got sick of it after 1hr.. duno why.. the enviroment just dun fit for playing pool.. head off to yishun interchange.. ate some desserts.. nice!.. went home after that.. alone.. hahas.. my bros again went off by them selves.. slacking around until now.. havent take my dinner though.. starting to miss her again.. afraid you will find me irritating if i sms you for no reason.. will you? hope not.. *hungry*.. signing off everyone..
* is good to see good old friends *
「 Tuesday, May 30, 2006 」
loLs..k. enough of lameness..hais..yup.. just have to accept the fact that im sec4...june holiday equals to more work...it's not a holiday...doing twice the amount of work..*trying*..failed..loLs..will just fly to my bed and *poof*..Zzz...loLs...went to school late today...felt great! fulL of energy!.. except really hungry... forgotten all about my breakfast..lost my energy even to laugh..loLs..played some NE quiz tinky..fun! hahas..i build up Singapore..it's a expert builder you are talking to..loLs..nahs.. just kidding..after CH lesson i and brian walk back to class..suddenly we saw something 'ghastly'..loLs..i means really 'ghastly'.. !!!..i was thinking like which 'ah ma' had come to teach our class..the back view looks like the teacher from the oldern days..those who massace..loLs.. 'You all can come in'.. oOoooOoo..it's mdm vani...*shocked* ..really..(from the bottom of my heart)...re-borning ur hair just dun suit you...really..loLs..went home after that..
reading through some of my chemistry notes..reading first..hahas..havent start intensive studying yet...going..gtg..still got work to do here..shld have done it first...my mood just wanted to study chemistry(for the first time though) ..loLs..Jiayou!
* 只对你说, Sarang Heyo *
( missing you )
「 Monday, May 29, 2006 」
at last? i hope...anymore chinese i cant take it anymore... but i guess it all ends here..wOOO! ..no more chinese!! woke up early today.. argh! dreams again...my mind is really cracked up..i guess everyone only took one 'o' level MT paper...i took it two times..2 times the stress...i took it in my dreams...argh! just cant rmb what was tested inside..if not maybe i will score full marks? loLs.. nahs..woked up having a spliting headache...force myself to go to school ..of cos...it's the 'o' levels..went to school...when i reach school saw my group of classmates and my chinese teacher talking..join in too...for the first time..she was talking like a friend..a really nice friend..who ask you to stop studying? loLs.. it's the 'o' level rmb? nahs...she just say stop studying..relax..loLs..the paper was quite ok...i dun tink i will do that badly...just afraid of the paper 2...just duno understand the 2nd passage..use my copy and paste method again...hope it work...if it does not...sayonara..KO..loLs..thinking of it makes me stress..no where to go after that...suppose to go out with my family to restuarant..i tink i spoil the plan..end up solo all by myself..*sad* bens accompany my to eat yoshinoya..*thanks* hahas..brother mah..went home after that...why some people today so emo..duno feel like talking? maybe only 2 lar..weird? nvm.. feeling tired..maybe i will just take a nap.. signing off..
* It's the end!! *
「 Sunday, May 28, 2006 」
tired to the max..that was ytd...fully recharged now.. :) yeap..nvr really studied my chinese...i guess all the revision at the last few days should already drill all the information into my brain..jus read though the papers my chinese teacher gave..it's o's tmr..scared...*tembling*...not sure why? maybe is because i have set my standard to a higher level.. trying to aim for a B..but it's still ok if i get a C..not much difference.. cos i may not use the mark even..in the afternoon..went out with my bro...time just pass so fast...suppose to catch a afternoon movie...yeap 'X-men 3' in the end we did not..ate lunch...went to check out some stuff at chinatown...so many things i didnt know..got a new pillow for myself..yea! can have a good night sleep today..headed to orchard to meet my second bro...came out for his break.. went to the food republic to eat...woah! the hokkien mee is just so nice...YUMMY!! after that my second bro went back to work.. i and my bro head to cineleisure to watch the movie we wanted...hais..so suay? all the seat booked up left first 2 rows..didnt want to walk any further we just took it...waited for about 45 mins..the movie only started at 735..700 movie was like left the first row only...headed in to the theatre at 735.. nice.. just great...dam chio! loLs..great movie they got there..must catch it 'X-men 3'..so many mutants die...so sad.. :( too bad..loLs..by the time the movie ended it was 945..meet my second bro and we headed home..tired day..but a fun one...destressing myself from chinese...*praying* ..im tired..gotta bath and sleep...nice pillow!..lols..hope i dun dream or anything to distrub me in my sleep..really need this rest..
* Happy 16th Birthday Joc!! a sWeeeeeT 16! *
* doom's day(tommorrow) *
「 Saturday, May 27, 2006 」
yup..another day at chinese class..argh!..so long...as usual her lesson drag again..this time..it almost drag times 2 the lesson..exhausted..kind of tired actually..kept yawning in the whole chinese lesson..but still kept myself awake.. slept late ytd..made the birthday card for joc..*hand-made*..gan dong ba(touched?).. maybe not..loLS...hope you like the present and the card..after chinese class went to mac to eat...something funny happen there..actually not funny...its dumb...nvm..still gave it eventually..hahas..went home after that...so bored..on the TV gt nothing..turn to central..woah..still gt kid's central..wahahahhas..not bad..there's still a kiddy side in me..wahahhahas..nice lar! superman..tata! lols..nahs...i was watching 'one piece' kind of nice after watching it for the second time.. watch the whole series before already..maybe not all almost all..loLs..slept after that...woken up by my father..must go and fetch my bro from camp..booking out..*sleepy* went to yishun with my family to eat our dinner first...woah! thought i wouldnt meet anyone at yishun...or at least not my primary school frens.. got shocked..loLs.. at a handphone shop..someone tap me from behide..turn back no one...nahs..must look down..loLS..jkjk..saw until joc..'heyS!'..again? tat the only 'word' we speak to each other? heyS here..heyS there.. *dots*..hahas..nvm..better than nothing.. :) went to my bro's camp to fetch him after that...quite far...all the way to jurong..nvm...got PSP to play..no worries..created a new team in there..'slackers republic' power..all the players max stats..except for my defenders.. still power..gt nesta, maldini..etc...power? of cos...loLs..by the time reach home already so late..jus bath finish...blogging before i sleep..tired? 100% yes.. niteS..
* dreaming of you *
* 2 more days to chinese 'o' levels *
「 Friday, May 26, 2006 」
MT sup. is killing me! nvm..tmr is the last day for it..i guess i'll be going..bored..benS ask me follow him go...i guess maybe half the class will not come for tmr sup. it's just too early..earlier than the normal school day..hmm...she is just going through the same thing over and over again..maybe thats her method..drilling the methods into our brain...is it working? im not sure..it seems like we are at our limits...just copying everything down from the board...overall still gain more confidence in myself for the last few days..jus one week...we have done more than 15hrs of MT.. can die! lols..seems like we survived...gotta slp now..tmr must wake up early...hais..niteS*
* new blogskin made..check it out.. *
* i still love you very much..(missing you..) *
「 Thursday, May 25, 2006 」
feeling so helpless..school was as usual draggy for the last few days...*exhausted* no..really..im getting tired of it...maybe it issit much of a use anyway...too tired to get any information into my brain..the usual 2 hrs has always been drag to 3 or more...how long more can i take it.. 2 more days i guess.. the only thing pushing me is the thought of no more MT after next monday..and the presence of you...today aint so tired i guess..though i slept at 1am..did rest myself though in the afternoon ytd.. but now im so tired.. dun even have the strength to look at my chinese paper..'seeing it as a blank paper' ..my com is a different think so dun say 'how come still can look at the com' ...loLs..even how tired am i.. my eyes can still stick to the screen...*amazing* hahas..
* hmm gal...why are you so sad? smiles..hurts me when you are in tears..dun keep everything to urself...if u need someone to share your troubles..im always there.. *
* a crack in ur heart, leaves a hole in my heart.. *
「 Wednesday, May 24, 2006 」
yups..boring life..as usual for this whole week..im totally drain out..catching every free time just to take a nap..struggling to keep myself awake..i just cant focus...got back my report book today..really dissapointed with myself..terriblely though i already knew the marks..really gave me the green light that i must move...cant slack anymore.. been saying this to myself..hope it goes in...hmm..everything is just not fine...starting to feel more and more silent...silent to everything..i guess it just an excuse that im tired...who can be tired all day..just replying to what people ask me..laughing at their jokes..meerly making myself exist...'bird!'...loLs..really..i wanna ask some people do i even exist as part of their life? or just exist as a bypasser at a part of their life...no one can answer this i guess...really? i wanna ask..do my parents really care.. im like rushing through my workload...and they ask me to do things i never desire to do...come on! i have a 'bloody' chinese o' levels..and my workload is like tons(take alot of effort to do chinese, extremely tough for me)...no time even for my revision...forced me into following my bro to camp...if my bro know about this he wun't want me to go too...dun my parents know i got a o' level to take..there's a chance i'll be moving house again..cant they just do it nxt year..im like getting treated as dust..i think thats the problem in acting too strong in fornt of your family..they will just think you can handle everything by yourself..nahs..im just too soft...cant do anything...i guess everything turn out to be me as the problem..cant overcome this fear in me...not those phobia that im scared..this fear...the worst part of it...i dun even know what im fearing of... 'Tired i guess' i think that not the main reason that im not talking to her...making myself feel better i guess..but i dont want that to happen..yup..i know you are trying your best to talk to me...i will try my best to talk to you too..just dun 'dao' me.. i will sian diao..*dissapointed* ..will be always looking out for you...* really need you *...i guess..haiS..
* my heart beats for you *
* 3/4/5 more days *
「 Tuesday, May 23, 2006 」
exhausted.. totally wore out..if i didnt anything wrong today...im sry..just wasnt myself today..kind of nuts up there..tired...i tink i would hardly survive this week..breaking down..am i making the right decisions? when everything seems right...something will just crop up...everything i do..all just goes down the drain...hais.. wish i was in another shoe...this shoe of my is just too hard to life with it...*burden* it just like wearing metal boots...every movement i make just seems so difficult..just dazing my way through...once again MT sup. ended at 4++ today...hw stacking up...really trashed by chinese...homework though lesser than maths or any other subject..i will take years to complete it...by the time complete it...my brain will be already drain out...hmm...where shld i go now..how i wish JC no chinese...woah!.. i comfrim go...if i go ploy..i may not have a high chance in studying locally..if i go JC i may not even pass...worst..im afraid i wun even cross 'o' levels..just afraid..not crossing..getting quite a good grade..at least to one of my desired courses..hmm..just thinking... feel so lack behide in time...cant lose out to the rest.. no time to rest...byEs..
* though in silence, every moment i look at you in your eyes. I'm just showing i still care for you. *
* pushing myself to the limits *
* 6 more days to the greatest battle of all times * XD
「 Monday, May 22, 2006 」
did i say the stress ends for this term? NO! it just started..stress at school days are just literately filling up to the brim...struggling to for a breathing space...i was like half-dead through all the lessons*yawn* tired..nahs..half dead through out the day...talk to me first? geez...too tired..got a blank mind...nth to talk to you...*sry* ..will try my best to reply though..the day was like so long...though we had a few so-called free periods... instead of doing some work...i jus decided to take a nap...eyes closing...hahas..lucky never got caught...not that unlucky like ferza..."if u duno.. i will extiguish you.." wahahahas..remember that? loLs..adding on to the tedious lesson..chinese intensive sub. addition 2 and 1/2hrs after school..for the whole of this week...woah!..until 5 everyday...how am i going survive?!?!...not just that...chinese test papers are pling up...*sigh*.. going to be a chinese week this week... no maths..science..just chinese...hmm..still got alot of chinese paper to do...signing off..
* It's closing..so close *
* 7 days to chinese 'O' Levels *
「 Sunday, May 21, 2006 」
yeap..another week has past.. seems like everyweek im saying this...but it's true...passing rather fast..soon it's going to be chinese 'o' level's..kind of scared of it... *trembling* hmm..today woke up late...sry guys i didnt go... jus too tired.. wored out...woke up feeling there's nothing to do..nahs...jus didnt want to do anything... slacking..just stayed at home...after lunch...got bored..started making a blogskin...hmm..rather nice..not bad...title "MyLife"... feeling it's a waste if no one uses it... i just posted it on blogskin...see how people will vote it..woah! in the top 15 table... *shocked* lols..slacked around at home...so bored until i went to slp...abt 7 i woked up...wad? i slept 4 hrs..!! awaken..so awake...sent my bro back to camp..hmm..hahas...together..we ate at jurong point...woah!...dam full...nice! after see him off..i headed home..top up my card too..hmm..can sms again..lols..yup...nothing much...my days just get more and more lifeless as time passes..nites*
* thinking of you *
dead beaten...simple english...im damn tired...the day all started early...went to school at 8 to collect our physics paper...done really badly once again...but at least pass it...why are humans so ... lols... at first... all of us tot we would fail...just wan a passing mark...now? pass still whine? lols... of cos...humans are still humans...like me...wahahahahs.. so dissapointed with myself...haiS..."WAKE UP!!! stop living in ur dream land." how i wish all of tat was true...prefect life...lols..dream on!!.. chinese was ok.. jus abit unlucky tats all...everyone in the class increase by 2 marks..and i went down by 2 marks...isit life being unfair to me? *sigh* hmm...but my oral did reasonably well.. isit the teacher or wad? still pass wif a c5.. not bad for a frequent f9 player...lols? nahs...im deproving...where wangzhe..he's the best teacher for weaker students...my grades improved to b3/4..going down once again...lols..after school went around cwp to hunt for sth...which cant be found...lols...missing...went home dissapointed..nvm...reached home...wanted to slp...of cos...? but didnt...some nice show was on tv...watch till abt 4++...my bro asked me to go for a movie...got some free tickets i guess... but only at lido...dots...went all the way to there... at the mrt...search through my bag for the psp...argh..left it at home...what a boring 30mins ride there...hate going to town actually..so far..reached there...wanted to see the Da Vinci Code...seems like it sold out till 9++...so didnt watch...others were because of the seating...if not also sold out...last movie left.."over the hedge" i tot the movie was like unpopular.. howcome it never solds out... actually that theatre was 4 theatre combine into one..and it was like 3/4 filled?...lols...didnt know people are so lame...that movie was lame..but funny..average...hahas...some parts was still dam funny..laugh like hell...people praying before they eat...the animals say worshiping the food...wahahahahs...bought a combo popcorn and drinks..hmm...been a long time since i watch a movie with popcorns...the popcorn so big....at the end of the movie still left a remainder of half..after the movie...my elder bro went to meet up with his frens... nothing to do...i jus wandered around there...hunting for the special sth i wanna buy... found it... went back after i went to other shop to see if there's a better sth... it closed... *sigh*...nvm i know the same shop branch near my house...lols.. went to meet up wif my second brother after his work ended abt 10...at headed home...phew ...what a long day...not sure of my direction im heading...jus staying at the centre...*miss you*..haiS..nites..
* moving closer to you? or letting you go? *
* Best Of Luck team NSL *
「 Friday, May 19, 2006 」
pain...lols...typing rather slow now...injuried my right hand while retieving a ball? oh man..so suay..the ground was really slippery...many of us fall..worst thing is i fell side ways...hit my right hand...now cant write? how to do my homework...hais...tired..couldnt sleep ytd again.. disturb by my bro till 1am..at 3 i was still awake...didnt felt like coming..but just came to get the last 2 papers...wasnt really happy with my marks...though i tot i would get an f9 for chemistry... 7 f9... but i still pass...borderline though...mus really put in 100% effort...if i still fail at prelims...im taking another routre...really dissapointed with english...could have gotta at least a b4? mistakes...mistakes...failed again...hais..another 49...what's with me and the no. 49... hate it...but language is a unpredictable sub. u maybe score a1 at a time... and a failure at another...gonna stop here...my hand is hurting even more...had fun though play soccer with NSL team...good luck for you guys match on sunday..
* in pain *
「 Thursday, May 18, 2006 」
tired..didnt slp ytd..hahas...stayed up to catch the champions league final...barcelona V.S aresnal...really nice match...though not many goals were scored...tables just keep turning..the total score was 2-1..aresnal lost..as expected though...good game..the match end abt 5...ate my breakfast...then headed to school..half dead...hahas..got some really unexpected marks...y not i just state my marks first?
all the papers that i felt was easy...nvr really end up well...emaths really shocked me..paper 1 was bad..but was still ok...paper 2 i failed horriblely...CH was ... dumbfounded? expected better marks though it was a tough paper...structure essay is gt L2 4marks..lols...not even half..hahas..lost many marks because i forgtten to end evidence for my sources...really unexpected was chinese...60? i tot i wun even get a 30...not bad...hahas...overall result i gt for today was really ... cant let this to bring me down i guess...mus work harder.. gambaette...haiz..feel there sth stuck in my heart... jus wanna shout it out.. wait for tmr maybe.. may score even worst..i tink..went home i went staight to slp... tired..not even eating lunch...just came back from dinner...terrible terrible...cant feel worst... you? nvm..haiz..
* Shocked *
「 Wednesday, May 17, 2006 」
today was a holiday for our school..woke up late...had a good rest at last ..since the start of mid year..havent had a good rest...i walked out of my room..and look at the ceiling...hmm..it still seems the same..same as went i first moved in...2 years has passed so quickly..many things happen...i just dun really know weather im on the right track...so many things just happen...sometimes even im confused who am i...suppose to head to ferza hse to jam... something just happen..and it was cancel... haiz..no plans for today i guess... sry iman..didnt feel lyk going out today...hmm...the only thing that take me away from this world is music...yea? the whole day i just lock myself i my room..blasting the air-con directly on me...blast my music..playing my guitar..when i sat on my bed...i just slept again...disturb by some disturbance though...but had a good 5 hrs rest..need that energy for tonight's match...barcelona V.S aresenal... going to be a great match i guess...going to have my dinner now..byeS..
* Every word you say..Makes me feel im wrong..I just feel weird..I really want to talk to you like how we used too..not sure what's happen to my world.. it jus seems that i always the one causing the world to crumble...isit you? or just me... haiS*
「 Tuesday, May 16, 2006 」
at last... mid year is over.. funny..not feeling any stress down... still feeling stress..lols... had physics paper 2 first... it was ok.. hmm...better than the paper 1 which was a killer.. already tire out after the first paper...didnt have a good rest ytd...could sleep again...whats happening to me? my head was hurting the whole morning... quite a bad headache actually.. just had to bare with it.. telling myself another 2 hrs more...wasnt in the state to study amaths... jus went in without any preparations... didnt touch amaths yesterday too.. jus tried my luck.. counting totally on my revision last 2 weeks...wasnt really prepare of paper 1 anyway too... how well can i do for paper 2... was kind of blur...went in to exam hall...i heard the examiner saying the amaths paper was 2 and a half hr...it was really clear in my mind...i even told brian the paper is 2 and a half hr... flip open... i jus took a deep breath and take my time slowly do... suddenly i feel the paper was lyk so easy...breeze through.. maybe wrong! argh dun care lar..hahas...by the time i reach qn 10 i look at the time...another 40 mins more...can slowly do ar...doing half way suddenly the examiner annouce..."10 mins more.." i was shock..staring at oblivion... i strain my eyes and look at the white board that was there... wa! really 10 more mins... i was still trying to show the eqn... cant show... i gave up...counted the mark i lost instantly.. 17marks! haiz...wasted... a ez paper which i lost marks for nth..qn 12 was even easier...shld haf jus flip over and do...nvm...after the whole exam... it was still not the time to celebrate... had MT oral...waited for a really long one hr...we were waiting in the class room so bored..everyone started talking..so loud...then wu lao si came in and said if we make somemore noise she will deduce our marks by 1/2.. i was tinking...y not i go home now...lols.. maybe my normal marks may not even pass... now she wanna cut half..? lols.. my turn came... struggle through...the passage was a killer for me.. the other part was ok... wan me to talk...i can really talk crap... even yeayeayea! lao shi...lols! said i was quite gd.. only that my passage totally killed me...becos passage take up 1/2 of the marks of oral..suppose to play soccer...see no one ard in school i jus headed home... was tinking that the NE tink wun not end...didnt brought my hp... so didnt bother to call ferza...i tot bens went home already.. crap all went ferza hse... nvm...was really tired anyway...lyk ytd...went home 'boom'..slp..zZZ...woke up at 7++ to eat...now slacking ... hmm...life without exams are really slack...continue my slacking now...Byes! signing off!...
* ..isit me or you?
..jus cant bring myself to talk to you..
「 Monday, May 15, 2006 」
tired..lols..jus woke up though..came back from school headed staight to bed..hahas...maths paper was tough..flip open the paper..started doing...*toot*..censored..lols...stuck...mus do alot of tinking..which im not in the condition to do it today...nvr had a gd slp ytd...keep dreaming of sth i cant even rmb now...already lost 24 marks...i guess so...one qn 12marks...it's lyk woah!...so much.. jus 2 qns cost me 24 marks...haiz..nvm...no point crying over spilled milk.. tmr will be taking physics paper 2 and amaths paper 2...2 major papers...gogogo! also it's the last 2 papers...wooo!... study mood now i guess... prepare to chiong physics..than amaths at nite...yup!..hmm.. jus couldnt isolate myself from you...although i kind of ignored u for today...hahas...hmm...seems like i jus got to let what's happening continue...tired of trying to change it...yup!..
* smile! you are nvr neglected...
..as there's always someone out there..
..looking out for YOU *
「 Sunday, May 14, 2006 」
time pass rather fast...haiz..the week end is ending in exactly 1hr 20mins...seems like i was stuck in time or sth...the last 3 days was like years? life have been hard to cross recently...jus struggling...just to keep myself alive...trying my best to stay strong...haiz...am i hated behide my back? i really wan to know why...people whom i duno.. just marked me as negative..do i even know u guys? why do u even say that.. i dun really care i guess..many people jus feel i so 'dao'... my first impression of people will be always arrogant...but im not...im jus quiet around srangers...u cant expect me to smile at you when i dun even noe u..nahs..jus act blur lyk sarah..hahas...my handphone still locked up in my cardboard...nvr look at it...i tink no one had contacted me anyway...tmr i'll then take a look...3 days...it had been locked up...hmm...it so hard for me to forget..isolating myself from you..i dun exist anyway...in ur world..or everyones world...im jus a mere shadow to tickle some fun into their lifes...at the end of the day...i will jus dissappear..going back to my old self i guess...the quiet self..i guess it's a reverse reaction...hurting myself the more i avoid you..not in the mood to do anytink..havnt study actually...u may tink im dumb to neglect my studies... but i jus cant stop tinking...hope this pain will ease soon...nites*
* hey gal...i know u are going through alot..take care of yourself though.. *
(you wun look at it anyway...haiz)
* breaking down in isolation *
「 Saturday, May 13, 2006 」
* will you?
a it's a dream come true...woke up quite early for me...tired..slp at 3am ytd..woke up at 11am.. tis few weeks i seem to slp very late...wake up early...insolating myself from all contacting me..i kind of locked up my phone..anyway no one will contact me...sadness..changed and i headed to town wif my bros.. never did much today...jus head to penisula to get my guitar..woah! dream come true..my own eletric guitar...yay! bought a nice strap for it too.. stated " crime scene - do not enter " wa lame! broke a hole in my pocket though...but it was worth it...the equi. was heavy.. lucky my father fetch us back...if not back pain.. hand pain..all pain...lols..suppose to go out wif my elder brother after we put our our stuff at home...hmm...sth crop up...then i stayed home..sianzation...tested out my new set of strings...hmm...song! quite noise..lols.. no wonder we go fer hse sometime gt complains...moreover.. we blast his amp. to the max! wahahahs... pity his neighbours...but i lyk..hahas...jus came back from dinner...tired...i feel lyk slping now..maybe nt coming online ltr tonight..or maybe 1-2 am..lols..maybe...nites..
* Rock for livE *
* A flower.. *
..that you just wun accept..
*you ate my heart?!?!
「 Friday, May 12, 2006 」
woke up rather early today...really tired cos ytd i slept late...followed my family to pray.. my younger bro say sth funny...wad is vesak day?.."it's a day chinese and indian gather"said in an indian slang...i laugh lyk hell..actually it not tat funny..lols...after tat went home...all my bros went out.. once again i was home alone...really tired of every aspect of life...hmm...suppose to meet up wif my frens for soccer..but it rain...really made my day worst...bored stuck at home...wif my com and no one to tok to...somehow i feel tat u are reluctant to reply my msg..slowly breaking down..crumbling..dying...hmm..abt 7++ went out to haf dinner...a weird feeling made me lose my appeitte to everything...ate one small bowl of noodles...though i was purely hungry.. but i jus wanted to release this pain... the pain that u unknowingly stuck on me...went home...i play winning 11 on the psp...hmm...score goal..thrashing chelsea!.. hmm...did i cause all programs ard me to change?...bens went to watch mi:3 already...without us..am i was to blame?..suppose to watch ytd...i tot i was watching wif my bro...wad i didnt noe is he have already watched it...maybe watching with fer and iman...hope they will...jus came in to blog this... doing nth...waiting for the time to pass...second by second...for this pain to end...
* u came. *
..and took my heart away..
..leaving me to bleed slowly..
great rest to start off my day today..woke up at 9am..how great was that? headed to school at 10.30am..woah..hahas...they look so stress after their first paper...the grp of us one got one paper today..which is mcq! wahahhahahs...slackest day in the whole mid-year exam..the paper was ok...made quite abit of mistakes but i dun wanna tink of it anymore...it's over...jus let it be over with..after school again...slack ard sunplaza..cant we jus go home...there was sth i wanna buy...pull it off the shelf..argh! they tie so many strings to it.. ._. lazy to ask for assistance...i jus walk off...one more thing was weiping keep pestering me wad i wanna buy.. if u see..than im gone...went mac to eat too..hmm..nice..twister fries is back..my favourite..lols.. slack till abt 4..wanna go home...than mrt track fault? wah suay..waited 30mins for the nxt train...hahas..hmm...i reach home...feeling bored..no one to talk to... started making a new design for my blog... a original design make by hawKS... hmm.. 10 times better than the last one i made..i've improve..lols.. 7 ++ went out for dinner wif my whole family...rarely eat together on normal days...weird huh? only weekends... my bro also came back from army...woots.. talk abt some crap stuff tat happen in his camp...after dinner reach home abt 10.. editing my design till now...jus finish..not bad...my masterpiece! treat it with care people...phew ...tired now..tmr morning still mus go baibai...so sian.. afternoon will be playing soccer with the slackers!..fun! tired...niteS*
* new-design *
* i more i try to ignore you..
..the more im hurting myself *
「 Wednesday, May 10, 2006 」
woo...the toughest day in the whole mid year has ended...i kind of counted wrongly...only left 4 more exams..woah ..some more spread out into 3 days..isit tat great? hmm..had chemistry paper 2 today first..tinking in would be a killer paper..i actually gave up upon sitting down in the examination hall.. telling myself.. jus flung it? do better at prelims.. but i really studied ytd... but anyone in the correct mind will noe that it is immpossible to get everytink in the head of 2 years in to my mind in one day...but i tink i jus did the impossible.. the paper was still ok...at least make me feel a hope of getting average grades.. at the break between exams.. hmm try to study as much amaths as i can... knowing i didnt touch amaths ytd was a sucide..but i was force...choose either amaths or chem...i tink amaths is all abt practice and sometime u will jus solve the qns..so i jus places my bets on chemistry...then comes amaths test...took 30mins to do qn1..!!! still get wrong answer... some weird numbers.. qn2 sub in the wrong discriminant...a small mistake cos the whole qn to be wrong...a few of the qns i manage to solve it..i tink i already lost almost half of the paper marks.. lols.. jus hope to pass...though i didnt study for tis test...but the amount of maths shld haf already prepare us for tis test...jus hope..of cos...hu will look to the bad side of tinks...after the maths paper when to mac and slack...talk crap..walk here there...at last end up at kfc to eat lunch...dam waste time? haha...went home after that...took a short nap...do some revising..then slack...i cant slack more in mid year than today...cos tmr is chemistry paper 1.. i already study chem ytd the most i can do is tys...going late to school tmr..how great!.. take one paper and it's the end of tis week...woah! fast..nitEs..*
* weird tinks are happening ard me!
..really weird tinks..
* vending all my anger on the stings!
「 Tuesday, May 09, 2006 」
another day of stress is passing me..hmm? everyone hang on! especially you.. yea u..take care of urself...haiz..dun tink u will even come to me abt anytink..nvm..today had emaths paper 1 first..woah!..nice difficult paper? nahs..quite easy..qns 1 - 19..i was like speeding through.. tot i will finish the paper within 45mins.. but qn 19 and abv were quite tricky..mus tink..no calculator some more..im too dependent on it.. XP hahas..quite ok..then the second paper was SS..i was tinking it would be a breeze...doing tat exam change my whole mindset..the issue base qn made me feel kind of sad..shld have studied merger or sustaining devlopment instead...Sri lanka issue-base was a killer...not much things to write abt...i tink i may even do badly tis time...=( study smart my frens...dun jus stuck ur mindset on wad u studied on the notes.. keep tinking of wad i wanna buy fer her...everyday is lyk repeating the same damn tink..haiz..y am i regreting?.. not sure of myself ..will u reject my present if i buy one for u? hmm.. stuck in my mind last few days...if u are reading tis post..i jus wanna say..i will always be there for u..jus hang on..4 more days.. ._. hmm...still gt chemistry and amaths tmr...haiz...hope i do well..
*tips? no tips for today..cant tink of any..*
「 Monday, May 08, 2006 」
nvr blog ytd cos i was jus too tired slept at 3am the day before...woke up at 9...dots.. nth much ytd. jus went to mac to study.hmm...reach there abt 3. Met harry,john,lan,vic,tony... aiman gt some shit problem and came late..i mean stomachache. lols. studied till 7++ went up to do sometink.. saw joc and nisa.. going foodcourt? hmm..yea.wadeva...went home after tat.. today's test jus burn my mind out...wadeva i studied ytd jus didnt go in...maybe only for physics...slept at 12 on the spot cant go any further...my mind jus went boom!...slept on the chair...argh..back pain!..lucky at middle of the night still went back to my bed...if not my back will really break.. history was first..haiz..didnt have enuff time to weigh the last qn.. hope i do beta in the sb to pull up my grades.. hand pain!...had a really long break...taking every last min to study physics...at last paper was a killer paper.. mistakenly shaded wrongly.. the easiest qn and i gt it wrong..nvm.. going to flung it anyway.. hope paper 2 can at least make it pass...tats gonna be hardwork.. after all the stress from the exams..maths remedial! ._. ...im really tired..wanted to slp in class..hahas.. after everytink..hmm..head to kfc..on the way to there..woah!..nigel..speedo.. all of us challenge him...reach the main door of sunplaza all gasping for air? nigel still zoom!...fast! sukgei! went kfc tried their new meal...nice!..ooOooOoOshi.. head home after that..hmm...eyes are closing now..but still gt SS and emaths to study...hmm...it's gonna be a long nite! to all my frens.. jiayoU!
*tips to score well:*
#1. burn your books & comsume 'em.. XP
「 Saturday, May 06, 2006 」
really tired... slept till quite late today...re-energised...yeah~ full of energy... hmm... followed my bro to town...wah? mus be tinking im mad...quite lar.. but brought my book along...studied on the train...at first wanna watch M.I 3..at last nvr...both my bros decided not to...walk for quite some time..saw a PSP...than my bro buy..lols? nvm.. quite fun anyway...im not paying it anyway too...lols...but than no money to buy my guitar le...NO..! lols.? haiz..gotta wait for another week...i dun bother much also...mid-year..wun haf time to play it..so there no use for it now...came back i went to cut my hair...gone? nvm... slack for almost half of the day le...cant slack more...or i'll be dead...byeS*
* 3words8letters *
..i love you..
hate? dun wish for tat to happen..
「 Friday, May 05, 2006 」
bored life...yup..another day of exams...all the non-study base subjects are gone...today had 2 papers...chinese compo..i was ok...hope i dun go out of point...amazingly wif the dictionary...no missing words...woah! sukei! english..killer? i feel quite ok lar...my frens say really hard...making me feel scared too...but i noe i have a couple of mistakes already...atf school went to the mrt coffee shop try the food...ok? edible..quite bad..after tat follow fer meet the rest to play soccer... JOKERS!! (fer.man.bens.mail.harry.louis.sku.nash.sam.nasir.khairi) fun.. really! stress gone..nice weather to play too... no mood to play actually..hahas...jus block all the ball..nvr really take shot...played for 2hrs..quite fast...ismail lar..dam hyper...anyhow kick the ball keep flying out...after tat ...i and bens bought 2 100 plus slack outside 7-11...cooling... lyk beer...headed home after tat...have been chatting since than...woah...so many hrs le...sarah..u really believe elephant block the road.? wahahahahs...if u see this post...i was jus kidding...loLS..hmm...gtg for now..ByeS*
「 Thursday, May 04, 2006 」
so fast..so furious...nahs..hmm..fast? its mid-year..and im feeling the stress of no time...pressure by the battle between science and maths...haiz...hmm..today had two exams...fought hard...hahas...english was fine..if my word length was not too short...abt chinese? hahas..better not tok abt it...but it was still an easy paper...with a killer passage...hope i really do well this time...cos that hope had some hardwork in it...hmm...feeling abit headache now...i think tats still alot more i mus do...GTG! byeS...
*tat smile u gave me..
..really brightens up my day..
「 Wednesday, May 03, 2006 」
what's with today? everyone in school seems worst than ytd...lols...all lyk take drug..hahas...really tired... slept in english class...i tink no one noes...if not i would have been scolded...nothing much happen today..jus all the subjects are rushing through some last minute revision...starting to noe that there is more to study than i tot...stress..wish i had eu to support me...jus gt to cope wif it...after this year...work load shld be lighten by quite abit...unless i go jc...yea? nahs.. still gt lots of maths to do...byE..*heys gal...wanted to tok to you.. but just felt that you dun wanna tok to me... so i nvr try to tok to u... im not ignoring u... you noe i wun... i'll still try my best to tok to you... hahas... dun blame my quietness at times... XP
「 Tuesday, May 02, 2006 」
mid-year exams are around the corner...no time to slack around...yeah? today... i had a really draggy day... just seemed like the time wun just move... both maths lesson was killing me... pushing me to my limits...hahas..cause my brain to shut down temporary...half-asleep in class... really could not open my eyes...feeling the stress from MT...still trying cope...my basics are just weak...hahas...after school had oral exam..hmm..think of it...the last oral was 4 years ago...kind of unlucky gt examined by the english HOD...giving me some weird expressions on her face...am i saying sth wrong or what? lols... but really..the picture really literally killed me... high hopes jus fall right down to ground zero... speechless...i started off with the wrong step and jus fall down the cliff...there was no going back...so i jus continued with the flow..trying to make sense of what i was talking abt...hope tat didnt really affected me...hope this will not happen on the real tink...phew...what a long day...many other things are happening...is my world crashing again...? niteS...
..just the comfort i need..
「 Monday, May 01, 2006 」
wad? lols.. yup! went to study with some friends..yea? hahas...always have fun together huh..us? yea..BenS,man,fer,rahs,nana and me of cos.. hahas.. met up at cwp at 1pm.. then couldnt find a place to study..the library was also close...siian diiao...at last went to the food court to study...quite ok...not too cold either..hahas..stress...so much to study...after studying..lols...went arcade? so lame.. play tat sweet game.. so many sweets...lols..quite lame lar..played it for an hour ++ ..ferza are u broke? lols..went home after that...started to rain..wanted to call my father to fetch...my phone went flat...haiz..gonna call by public phone..put my 10 cent in..stuck!...lols..nvm..jus went home by myself...hmm...still got alot of revision to do...yup...mid-year is coming soon...hope i dun fall sick...
*friends! U guys are the best! :P
Yea...sunday is here...that's fast...tat also means mid-year is coming...fast...no wonder every year students will jus do badly in their midyear...jus so sudden...start studying... yeah? went out wif my bro today...said he wanted to go places of interest...my father brought us...argh? places of interest or sight-seeing..went to many parks...font-canning...mt.faber...labordor park...lol.s...no bad...nvr been there b4...haha...so still quite ok..abt 4++ my father drop us at penisula plaza..break off from there...walk on our own...wanted to buy guitar...saw one really nice and cheap one...just didnt want to carry ard while we walk...nvm ..nxt time..hahas...they let people try there on the spot...with amp. all set up...hahas...cool...walk out frm there...went to PS wanted to disturb fer...too bad he cao liao...hahas...walk lower down the street to play pool...woah ...today quite ex..$10++ for 1hr..
really bored huh...nth to do so went to play lan...found a shop quite cheap...$2 per hour..lagness 0 = fun 100%...yea..FUN!...continue to walk down to cineleisure...went to check out sth...filled with people...and smokers...lols.. outside there...check out one of the nike shop...PSP free to play..fifa '06..fun ..after walking in there for an hour ++..went to yoshinoya to eat...salmon bowl again..hahas..my fav..went home after tat...my father came to fetch us...hahas.. hmm...glad that you are not angry wif me...:P ...what happen in the last few days made me felt how important u are to me... its late.. i guess..really tired..hahas...last 2 days have been slping at 2am...better slp now..NiteS*